Do you have a task you’re not looking forward to today? Maybe you’ve agreed to keep someone else’s preschooler while they enjoy lunch out…but now you’re having second thoughts about your generous offer. Or maybe you have to deal with a crummy situation at work and you’re dreading the discussion. It could be that you simply have to clean your house today, get it back in order after a fun-for-all weekend. Or you might need to say those words none of us enjoy saying — “I’m sorry” — and you’re thinking of every diversion you can to keep from having that encounter. Or maybe it’s some other task I can’t even conjure up in my mind right now, but it’s very real and pressing to you. And you…just…don’t…want…to do it.
Then again, it may not be a specific task you’re dreading today as much as you’re simply continuing to wrestle with a role you must play day after day that you never wanted to take on. Maybe you never planned to be a single parent, but …here you are…alone. Or maybe you have a child with special needs and you still, after all these years, feel unprepared, ill-equipped, out of your comfort zone with this role. Maybe you’re a working mom, but you’d rather be home with the preschoolers you left at daycare this morning. Or you could be a stay-at-home mom and you’re lamenting the fact that you didn’t get to dress up in something besides shorts and a t-shirt this morning, have coffee with grown-ups, and work on “really important stuff,” stuff that didn’t include cleaning!
Are you wearing shoes today that you never thought you’d be wearing? Or maybe those shoes are ones you picked out, but now you’re having second thoughts. They’re getting a little uncomfortable, pinching you around the toes, so to speak.
We’ve all heard those piercing words that I read this morning in Esther: