I’ve never been one to shy away from spending time alone, in solitude. I absolutely love spending time with friends and family, but I’m pretty good company for myself as well.
Still, enough isolation is enough! For Pete’s sake, I live on the edge of the world in Arizona, my parents are over two thousand miles away, my son is one thousand miles away, my daughter is always. extremely. busy. at college, I write (one of the loneliest professions in the world), and I work out of a home office that is tucked into a corner of my house that even keeps me from the company of my dogs. Honestly, I’m not complaining. That’s just the way God has set up my life. And I’m fine with it.
But only because I have the sweet and intimate companionship of my God all day long.
Recently I went through a little period of time when I desperately needed to feel God’s presence each and every moment of my day. I needed to feel Him on me, around me, over me…for various reasons.
I needed the accountability, for one thing. I was prone to thinking on things I shouldn’t be thinking on and saying things I had no business speaking. I needed Him to keep me in check.
I also just needed company. I was weary of being alone.
I longed to hear a voice besides my own. My own voice, especially the one in my head, had been betraying me. The thoughts that went through my mind were leaning on the faulty side, the unreliable. I needed someone to speak truth to me…constantly.
And I wanted to feel the pleasure of someone’s company as well. I longed to feel…well….longed for. Doesn’t it make you feel good when someone else feels joy for having been with you. While I probably wasn’t in the best disposition to give just anyone a lot of joy at the time, I still longed to feel like I was good company.
So the only thing I could do was seek the presence of the God of this universe.
Oh my, what a thought! To feel and know His presence all day long, from the moment my eyes opened in the morning until the time I drifted off to sleep at night. And quite honestly, I needed Him to be there all night too because I was prone to insomnia during that particular season.